So I have been sitting on this blog post for a little while. I wrote it while sitting in a cafe in London, waiting for the last leg of travel. Feeling overwhelmed with the decision I had made to let go of everything and go after what I want, I felt a lot of doubt in those first 24 hours. "What the hell are you doing?!" crossed my find a few times. So this is for all those who are about to embark on a new adventure, do it despite the fear and doubt you may feel.
Letting Go & Going after what you want - Easier said than done, am I right? Giving up routine, a good job, the security of family and the comfort of home. It's almost daunting to think of. However that's where I am, it's what I'm doing. I've bought a one way ticket to Europe, currently sitting in a cafe at Heathrow airport with my body clock well and truly screwed up because that voice in my head telling me to do what I love hasn't quieted down.
I'm not going to lie to you, I'm a little bit terrified because I'm not an impulsive person. I plan things out thoroughly, knowing exactly where I'm going and what I'm doing with my life. I finished High School, went straight to Uni to get a degree, traveled & am working in a field that had no layover with what I learnt in Uni. Some would say it was a waste of time, but I'm a big believer that everything happens for a reason, you are taken down paths, and face challenges and celebrate triumphs for a reason. You may not know why yet, but it's leading you to a good place.
The idea of leaving the city I've called home my whole entire life isn't daunting. It's leaving the people who make it home. It's my parents who have been my rock, my support and my guidance. They taught me that anything was possible with hard work and to always look at the glass half full. It's my siblings, who drive me crazy most the time, but bring me so much joy and two people I am so incredibly proud of. So for someone who likes to be in control of most situations and make sure that they are all okay, safe & healthy. It's going to be hard adjusting to not being able to be there when they need me.
So how are you able to let go and go after your dreams?
By knowing that what you're doing is going to have a positive impact on those around you and most importantly yourself, because we only have one life and we need to spend it doing what we love, even if it doesn't work out. We need to at least give everything to that dream and chase it, until you have it in your hands, and then you keep running. So I'm letting go of the comfort of home, and I'm jetting off to chase my dream of being a travel blogger & photographer, of inspiring people to travel to new places and try new experiences that put them outside their comfort zone. I want to bring you on a journey of challenges and triumphs, of all the craziness that is endured while travelling.
So with the future looking incredibly unpredictable, I'm counting on a few things to happen as I make this step;
Change always leads to growth, we're not the same people we were last month or the year before that, because the people we come into contact with and the situations we're thrown into, leads us to grow, and to learn. Taking a risk whether it be in business or in life is difficult (regardless of whether it's a calculated risk of not), but that will lead you to grow and be able to stand on your two feet...most the time (mum if you're reading this, I'm probably still going to call you to make sure I'm cooking chicken properly!).
“Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.”
― Terry Pratchett, A Hat Full of Sky
Becoming more grateful, with the lead up to me saying 'see ya later' to family and friends, I realised how lucky I was to be surrounded by people who love and support me. That I was grateful for the profound impact they have had and will continue to have on my life. I am also grateful that I have the opportunity to immerse myself in new cultures, meet new people. Learn from them. Life is so exciting and holds so much potential when you realise how much there is to be grateful for.
No-brainer right? Solo travel requires you to be independent, to become a decision maker. I'm not the most decisive person around, so this experience will teach me to become more independent and learn how to make decisions, without phoning a friend. We all need help sometimes, but I think it's we all should be able to rely on ourselves. To do what we need to do, to find happiness and the passion that ignites our soul.
You know when you have that feeling deep in your soul that where you're heading is where you need to be? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling and I hope that those who feel that too, follow it and listen to what it's telling you. I hope you're able to let go and follow that dream of yours, whatever that may be. As Marianne Williamson says "Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same"
So here is to the upcoming chapter & everything it encompasses, may it guide us to exactly where we need to be..
J E S S I C A x